All the tabs are fading, the browser's white background is turning into a calm lady. I can't clearly look at her, but I knew that she was watching me all this time. She's the only woman who had a crush on me. But I've always ignored her, I was using her. It's midnight and my eyes are having a blurry vision, but her face is clear.

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I don't know where she came from, maybe she is the outcome of all the things I have done on this laptop. The one who really know me well, my passion, the good and bad inside me and also my secrets. She knew most of my bad qualities, but still, she loves to look at my face without even blinking. We never talked about our relationship that much, but we have always communicated.

I don't have to be on a fake attitude to get an impression from her, there is no meaning in showing her the fake face. She really knew who I was. I usually type my words to her, her reply will always be binary. If she's in that much anger she will not let me do my errands, she freezes the whole system. Then I have to say sorry and give her more care.

It's been a few days since I've seen her, I can't face her. I've been depressed for a while and I hit her last time when there was a little fight. The mistake was on my side but my ego couldn't accept the fact. Now she's just poor calm woman waiting for me.

I've been always happy when I was with her, she doesn't talk that much. But she provides me with a comfortable state, where I don't have to be fake or following the rules of society. She's just purely a human soul from a beautiful universe than ours. She doesn't know to cheat, everything she expresses has a reason behind it.

She's not like those human beings who change all their characters according to the situation. She is completely honest, always doing her things without blaming anyone. All these thoughts are making me more ashamed. I wanted to go back to her, but I don't know how she will react. I knew that it will take some time to fix the problems between us.

Anyway, after thinking again and again I've decided to say goodbye and move on. I wanted to talk to her a little bit more. I reached near her and put some light to see her face, even without the outside light she was shining as I've never seen before. Then I was saying all I have to say, I was not getting any reply. So I waited, she's more beautiful than ever now.

Now there's some kind of emotion in her face, that I've never seen before. It was a smile but something different. Is that Goodbye?
She never came back after that, that glowing face turned into complete darkness.

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