When I was a kid my only dream was to have a beautiful fish tank and some Goldfishes. Father was kind of strict guy at that time, so it was not possible to buy something on my own. I also didn't have enough money. Wherever I see these aquarium fishes, I will stop there and looked at how those fishes move and everything.

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I always thought about becoming rich and standing all alone for myself and buying an expensive fish tank and also some beautiful fishes. Even if I don't have any aquarium I knew very well about each fish and their characteristics.

It was kind of awkward, cause I easily step into any conversation of my friends about fishes and in the end when they ask about which fishes I have, I'll be ended up saying "I don't have any". It was a hard situation, at that time each day I easily got inspired by talking about it seeing a beautiful aquarium.

I have always dreamt about someone giving me all these fish tanks and everything as a gift. But nobody came, it was always like that. People want to give others the gifts which make them happy, they don't think about the one receiving it.

Years passed and so many dreams came to my life, I still don't remember all of them. The new dreams where a lot bigger than the small fish tank, it was from a totally different world. Now I couldn't understand why I was so much dreamt about having an aquarium.

Yesterday when I went to the home, as usual, I went to my room and come to the hall with the laptop. I was going to browse a few things in the hall, it was the place I usually use when I don't have anything serious to do. When I looked around for finding my table which I used to put my laptop on, there was something different with it.

There was a fish tank on top of the table, it was bigger than from the childhood dreams I had. It was big and there are some beautiful fishes, It wasn't a goldfish. I didn't felt any happiness, all I felt was some disturbance.

If I were a child it will be the happiest day in my life. But now it's just a disturbance.
Then I enquired about that to my brother, then he told me that it was a gift from the uncle. It was their aquarium, now they don't have time clean it and do some of these small things.

This embarrassed me a lot, how could be the biggest old dream could become now a curse. Then I understood that it wasn't anything about the aquarium, it's just about me and my change. I've changed, the thing's I've seen as most important before don't even matter to me anymore.

Maybe that's how life is, our desires will always change. It's all about time. When the time has passed there is no value for even the diamonds. It's all about time, we will always change through that. Once's dreams will be the curses now.

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