It's hard to feel the beauty of life when living inside this loop of repetitions. Waking up from bed in the morning to going to sleep in the end, everything happens in between that is the same up to 90 percentage. There will be only a few differences if I could really look into it. There's not much fun as I have seen on the life of a hero, from movies. I don't expect that, but I think I need something little more interesting in life.

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Somedays I think a lot about this idea of 'where the real essence of life lies in'. I don't need a big meaning for this life, but I need something even stupid like "Wealth Is Important In Life" mantras. I don't believe in that, what I am saying is I am even ready to believe in stupidities if that's the real meaning.

The real thinking comes when I hear these poems and lyrics of some of the favourite songs. They can easily transport me into some new other dimension and can talk about some meaning of life, that's totally different from any of us. Especially The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost, those lines still confuses me,

"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less travelled by,
And that has made all the difference. "

These lines make me an old man who thinks about the past, the choices he made and his wrong beliefs. I know that if I die while I'm conscious these will be the lines coming in my mind. Now I don't know what my choices are gonna make me or where I'm gonna end up. One thing I'm clear about is more than the destination the path I travelled will be the interesting one.

There are few more lines like this that just pops in my head when I'm concerned about the future. Most of them are in my regional language. One of them is a song from a romantic movie, it is not just romance it includes the nostalgia also.

This man is loner, he had lost love in the past and he's living in that pain. He's a photographer, so he is travelling around seeing things in his own way. There's one line that's like,

"I'm just like a mirror,
I'm becoming whatever I see."

This may be a terrible translation but my limited vocabulary can't make it more beautiful. There's also some other line that means, After reaching the shore he feels like the sea was the best. It's just like I mentioned above, the path we travel.

Poetry is like this, make me uncomfortable by putting chaotic thoughts in the head. It's hard for me to conceive these philosophies, when I look at my life with these ideas-everything seems strange. These feelings are making me a strange one, I don't wanna be a freak. So I just try to put this aside most of the times.

All these were just some thoughts to understand where the essence of life lies in. I still don't know, is that in a relationship, health, wealth or if there isn't any essence. It's may just be complete chaos.

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